MKE, Week 16: Lemonade

 

The Greatest Salesman in the World, Ch. 11, Scroll IV: 

I have been given eyes to see and a mind to think and now I know a great secret of life for I perceive, at last, that all my problems, discouragements, and heartaches are, in truth, great opportunities in disguise. I will no longer be fooled by the garments they wear for mine eyes are open. I will look beyond the cloth and I will not be deceived. 

This hit home this week. A perspective on Life I have held for a long time…when life gives you lemons, make lemonade…I had to adapt this mentality because it seemed like the other option was a life of discontent, even sadness and depression. Things never seemed easy…I mean I was always “lucky” and certain things came easily, but I was never really happy. Was it all in my mind? Probably…

MKL 16.11: …The subtle forces of thought as they crystalize in our daily moods is what constitutes life.

MKL 16.14: The conditions with which we meet the world without, correspond to the conditions which we find in the world within. This is brought about by the law of attraction.

I was raised by a mother (maybe a father too) whom I didn’t realize till much later in life had mental illness. Nothing ever seemed easy. She was rarely ever happy, no matter the circumstances. No matter what jovial personality you are born with, the weight of depression, among other things (undiagnosed), is a difficult oppression to escape…especially as a child. It becomes learned. Subconsciously I came to believe that life was just one hardship, one suffering, after another. Nothing was ever good enough. She was never satisfied. I was never satisfied. People close to me suffered. I suffered. 

MKL 16.22: If the thought is destructive, it will have within itself the germ of its own dissolution; it will die, but in the process of dying, it will bring sickness, disease, and every other form of discord. 

But at some point I started to find a way out, a light, an autonomy. I sought out “self help” books (a habit I probably actually learned from her). I sought out spiritual teachings (also from mom, thank you). I sought out yoga. I sought out counselors. I got objective feedback. I realized this burden was not MINE to carry. But now it is my story to tell. 

Even though I realized I could lift myself out of the mire of my mother’s depression, the truth is, hard things still happen in life. We are not all dealt the same karmic lessons. We have samskaras we must attend to. It’s no doubt that what doesn’t break us makes us stronger, if we have the right mindset. I started to approach every hardship with the mentality that it was a lesson sent from beyond, an opportunity to grow. It helped me get through hard times because I could see a light on the other side. I knew it would all turn out fine, and that I might come out stronger for it. I began to shine that light and was able to be a beacon of light for others, sharing my experiences to help inspire others in my work as a yoga teacher and health practitioner. I was filled with humility and gratitude and my whole life changed. When things seemed to go wrong, I kept my head up, smile on my face, sometimes through the tears. 

MKL 16, intro: …Everything that lives has periods of birth, growth, fruitage, and decline.

…Those familiar with these cycles will not be disturbed when things seem to go wrong, but can apply the principle outlined in these lessons with full assurance that a higher law will invariably control all other laws, and that through an understanding and conscious operation of spiritual laws, we can convert every seeming difficulty into a blessing.

Two and a half years ago I lost my mom to suicide. Her story is mine to tell, because she is not here to tell it. The cumulation of years of destructive thought had a final dissolution. Tonight, on the eve of her birthday, I can’t help but think of her. I will not let her story end with a period. She lives on in me. I am who I am because of her, the hard stuff and the beauty. I can make her lemons into lemonade. I can shine her light through me. I do and I will, because why should the miracle that produced me end with her death? Why can I not extend that miracle to my deeds of today? She was nature’s greatest miracle. 

I am nature’s greatest miracle. 

I am not on this earth by chance. I am here for a purpose, and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth I will apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I will strain my potential until it cries for mercy. 

I am nature’s greatest miracle. 

Since the beginning of time never has there been another with my mind, my heart, my eyes, my ears, my hands, my hair, my mouth. None that came before, none that live today, and none that come tomorrow can walk and talk and move and think exactly like me. All men are my brothers yet I am different from each. I am a unique creature. 

–The Greatest Salesman in the World, Ch. 11, Scroll IV

We are all nature’s greatest Miracles. Your heartache is an opportunity to grow. Use that growth to shine your Light. The world needs it. 

 

 

 

 

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2 thoughts on “MKE, Week 16: Lemonade”

  1. You have worked long and hard to become the person you are now and will be even better as you accomplish your DMP. Thank you for sharing the intimate details of your life. Enjoy your recuperative time in Kauai. God bless you, Arien!

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