MKE, Week 15: Give It Up

One of my favorite things about writing is that I can enter into it not knowing the outcome and watch it unfold as the words pour out. This doesn’t always happen without effort, but there is an element of mystery that intrigues me. It is in that mystery that healing and epiphany often comes. Because once you open the gates of expression, there is something happening that is not always within one’s control…it’s as if your Higher Self is speaking to You, through You…or to Me, through Me. So let’s see what she has to say…’cause I have no idea where this is gonna go…

MKL 15.3: Difficulties, inharmonies, and obstacles indicate that we are either refusing to give out what we no longer need, or refusing to accept what we require. 

What we require…what we require…?? What we require is what allows us to experience the highest level of happiness and harmony. Why would we settle for any less? And yet so many of us, myself included, do it everyday. If we are dissatisfied, distracted, unhappy, irritable, most likely we need to LET SOMETHING GO that is HOLDING US BACK, so we can MAKE ROOM for that which will bring us to our HIGHEST LEVEL OF VIBRATION…HARMONY with our TRUE SELVES. 

MKL 15.4: Growth is attained through an exchange of the old for the new, of the good for the better; it is a conditional or reciprocal action, for each of us is a complete thought entity and this completeness makes it possible for us to receive only as we give. 

An exchange of the OLD for the NEW, of the GOOD for the BETTER. We must continually be cycling out the useless for the useful, the harmful for the helpful, the degrading for the uplifting, the GOOD for the BETTER…we deserve nothing but the BEST! Why would we settle for less? We must make the choice to GIVE IT UP so that our BETTER can come in! 

MKL 15.5: We cannot obtain what we lack if we tenaciously cling to what we have. We are able to consciously control our conditions as we come to sense the purpose of what we attract, and are able to extract from each experience only what we require for our further growth. Our ability to do this determines the degree of harmony and happiness we attain. 

We TENACIOUSLY CLING TO WHAT WE HAVE because we are afraid of being without, of letting go, of something different, of something NEW, of CHANGE. We FEAR THAT which is NECESSARY FOR OUR GROWTH! WE have to change for THINGS to change. But it’s all CHANGE. If we hold strongly onto things that we are accustomed to, but are clearly no longer serving us, we have no room for NEW or CHANGE…which ironically is exactly what we need to get what we LACK and what we WANT. You have to create a VOID in order for it to be FILLED. Make SPACE. GIVE IT UP. 

OM KREEM KALIYAY NAMAHAH…an ancient chant to the goddess KALI…she destroys, she takes what is no longer necessary or useful so that there is space for the fresh, the NEW, rebirth. In the past, there were times I chanted her invocation for days, months, years…knowing that all must compost in order to fertilize the seed of new…the new ME, the new LIFE. It was a prayer, a belief, a faith…because what was had was gone and there was no clinging without deep suffering. I’ve mastered the art of ACCEPTANCE and no longer cling…so much loss will do that to you…and there it is: GIVE IT UP… to GET IT…

What is IT? Not just CONTENTMENT, though that has it’s own virtue of acceptance, but HAPPINESS, truly finding that place of NO LACK. COMPLETION. There is contentment in that, because we could always have more and still not be satisfied, but how many of us just take what we can get in CONTENTMENT, instead of giving it up so that we can make space for true HAPPINESS? Why would we settle for less? 

This past year has been full of compost. Loss after loss, and yet I forgot to ask Kali for her blessing in letting it all go…I accepted it all, but did I process it, did I make waste a fertilizer for the new? Somehow the intersection of Master Keys with the ancient science of Yoga reminds me that every experience is Holy and exactly what I need to GROW.

MKL 15.5: …We are able to consciously control our conditions as we come to sense the purpose of what we attract, and are able to extract from each experience only what we require for our further growth. Our ability to do this determines the degree of harmony and happiness we attain.

So as we take time to see WHY these things have come our way…or if there is no WHY…Death has no WHY, that we can see…if we can see WHAT it is we NEED from the experience…if we can see that the VOID is an OPENING for what is to come, then it is all Holy and our happiness is whole-y our own. 

“Preach sister!” I might say to myself, but what I need to do is ACT. There are plenty of things in my current life that I could let go of to make space for new. There are hours and days and years of chanting to Kali that can be done to BLESS the VOID. So much is ready to come in, if I can only GIVE IT UP, and make space for TRUE HAPPINESS, COMPLETION. OM KREEM KALIYAY NAMAHAH. Amen.