Been waiting for a breakthrough, ’cause as I mentioned before, the night is always darkest before the light, so I knew something would come eventually; I knew the confusion would transform into clarity…about something.
Master Key Lesson 11, excerpts from the intro:
“Your life is governed by law–by actual, immutable principles that never vary. Law is in operation at all times, in all places. Fixed laws underlie all human actions.
It is well, however, to remember that while every effect is the result of a cause, the effect in turn becomes a cause, which creates other effects, which in turn create still other causes; so that when you put the law of attraction into operation you must remember that you are starting a train of causation for good or otherwise which may have endless possibilities.
We fail to remember that like attracts like in the mental world, and that the thought which we entertain brings to us certain friendships, companionships of a particular kind, and these in turn bring about conditions and environment, which in turn are responsible for the conditions of which we complain.”
Wow. Um…I guess I knew this somewhere in the back of my head…paragraph two, obviously the Law of Karma, which I’ve studied extensively…but somehow I was neglecting to own every small aspect of my current conditions.
One theme that has been coming up, actually for the last few years, but even more clearly in the last few months, is the feeling of giving more than I receive. (Ok, wait…haha, that’s a theme for my WHOLE LIFE! Another epiphany, right here and now!) But I mean recently, I guess it’s been apparent that it feels like I put more effort, time, money to maintain friendships, family relationships, day to day life than those on the other side of the connection. Ok, ok, if the above is true, then you are getting back what you put out, so maybe you’re not giving enough?? But WAIT…there is another element…the world WITHIN.
Let’s examine my work situation. I’ve got 10 years experience as a massage therapist. I get feedback daily from clients about the quality of my work and how it helps them. I’m fully confident in my skills; I know I’m the best…at least MY BEST. Why then have I been feeling undervalued and underpaid in my jobs as a massage therapist? That last sentence in the intro hit me smack in the 3rd eye the other morning.
BAM. That’s it. That’s it! Why do I feel undervalued in the profession that feels like my life calling? Why do I feel unimportant to the people I love and give the most to (not all of them and not all the time)? BECAUSE I AM NOT VALUING ME…to my FULLEST extent. If I don’t value myself, how can I expect others to value me? This is probably happening on a deep subconscious level…’cause it’s certainly not happening in my ego. Ha!
Now how do I know this? Because it’s not a new theme. Waded through this field before. After a break-up of a 4 year relationship, the biggest heartbreak was the realization that it had all been the outcome of lacking self worth and self respect. That was years ago. Ok, whole life, the theme continues…cultivating SELF WORTH. Still working on breaking down the old subconscious, apparently. Making progress though? Yes. The outer world is just a mirror for what’s going on deep inside. Remember this!
Those unsatisfying relationships in my life are merely a reflection of my relationship with MYSELF. If I am not FULLY valuing what I can give to the world, then how can I expect others to do the same? I gotta OWN that BEST. Not take less for an option. Let people come to me? That’s kinda scary. Do you end up out in the world with no friends and no work? LOL. Well…I guess we’ll see…